Sunday, 20 September 2015

Feelings of aloneness and abandonment are being felt by many on Earth at this time

Natural Evolutionary progression, NDE's and whats happening as we become the 'Prodigal' on our journey back home to the Soul Plane

On the night of Wednesday 16th September 2015 I awoke suddenly at 3am and had this sense of being utterly and completely alone.  It was a strange feeling because I have never had issues with being alone.   In fact I enjoy it and realise that most of my personal growth happens when I am alone.  I have never felt lonely in my life either.  So this feeling I had was extreme.  It felt as if I was separated from everything I knew.  The ultimate of being alone.  I was bereft in a way I had never experienced.  

I awoke in the morning and the feeling had gone.  I wondered what it was all about.  Then that very same morning I read John Smallman’s blog speaking about his own similar experience and suddenly I appreciated the experience I'd had. We all have the deep awareness that at some point our Soul separated from its Mother and Father.  We chose to leave our real home and go it alone as it were.   On a deep unconscious level we all know this and our journey is to acknowledge this and get past it so that we can begin our journey back home.  The story in the bible about the 'Prodigal Son" suddenly took on a different meaning and then John Smallman was writing about the same experience.  That certainly got my attention.  I want to share with you John’s channeling from the Apostle Saul on what this means.

The prodigal son returning home

Hello, this is John Smallman with Saul's message for Friday September 18th 2015. Today I am posting my whole conversation with him because I feel many of you may be experiencing doubts, just as I am, about humanity's awakening.

Me:   Good evening dear Saul.  Thanks for your last message.  If you wish to commune, I am here intending to be ready to receive.  And, as you must be very aware, I have been avoiding channeling again of late.  What's going on?  My mood swings, my skepticism, my judgments, my lack of interest in life.  If I'm on my path, and there surely is nowhere else that I can be, should I not be happy in the knowing that I'm eternally One with God, with you, with Jesus, with all of creation?  Is my ego just blocking my access to the spiritual realms with meaningless distractions?  Anyhow, I shall try to relax into a receptive frame of mind and listen to your loving response which I believe is always available to me.  And yet, I'm on edge fearful.  This is stupid, insane – me in conflict with me.  And yet I've read that many holy ones on Earth have experienced something similar, only probably far more intensely.  So why should it be any different for me?

I got very upset this morning listening to Anita Moorjani being interviewed about her near death experience by Brian Rose (  It was as though I was suffering deeply at missing out on God's Love and Acceptance, like I could remember a time when I had it, but could not remember it, just the intense pain or emptiness of not having it, but what “it” was I could not imagine at all.  I guess I just felt utterly alone and abandoned, as she told her story of the infinite Love and Acceptance that she had experienced during her NDE, and of the fact that her knowing of it has remained with her.  Yes, I “feel” my life is pointless here on Earth, but I “know” that it is not.  So please Dear Saul uplift me with a loving hug and an inspiring message.

Aloneness and Abandonment 

Saul:   Yes John, I will.  And of course you are on your path, precisely where you intend to be in this and every moment.  Your feelings of aloneness and abandonment are being felt by many on Earth at this time.  An enormous release of negativity, of anger, of bitterness, of resentment, of fear in all its forms is in progress and is visible in all the conflicts, wars, and human suffering across so many parts of the world.  This is a prelude to humanity's awakening.  It is essential that humanity releases its vice-like hold on the illusion by releasing all that is maintaining that hold by being in contradiction and opposition to Love – anger, jealousy, bitterness, resentment, judgment, blame.

There is only Love, and you know that, but in your fear, caused by the illusory separated state into which you willingly entered, you feel an intense need to protect yourselves.  You fully believe in your state of separation, and in that state it seems that there are enemies all around you, anyone who is not you!  But there is only One!  And all that anger, jealousy, bitterness, resentment, judgment, blame is truly self-directed, BUT it is far too painful for you to acknowledge let alone accept and so you project it out there, onto others, and those others are You!

You have rejected the Love that is offered to you in every moment because of an intense sense of unworthiness that your choice to separate yourself from God has encouraged and developed within you.  The parable of “The Prodigal Son” from The New Testament is the best analogy to describe what you are undergoing.

And the prodigal son returned home, which is what you are doing.  And the greeting and welcome that you will experience when you arrive is utterly beyond your comprehension at present as you continue to be buried in the illusory state that you seemingly built all those eons ago, but in truth it was only a moment ago because time is also illusory.  You did a brilliant job in constructing the illusion which is why it seems so absolutely real to you, more real than Reality, which you doubt.

Near Death Experiences

The “touchy feely” physical environment that is the illusion that you built is incredibly limiting, and that is why it is so difficult for you to conceive of Reality.  The limitations are like a vast cloak or veil, a heavy and impenetrable fog which hides the Light from you, Light that is eternally present. Those who have near death experiences are effectively breaking through into the Light for a moment, and that experience can never be forgotten.

Many of them are realizing that one of their tasks is to share their experience to assist in the awakening process which they have realized is inevitable, and they are doing that.  All their fears have been dissipated, permanently, by the experience of Love that their NDEs provided.

This does not mean that they never feel sad or suffer, because that is part of the illusion to which they have returned, but those feelings are a result of their intense compassion for all of humanity.  They too want the awakening to happen so that all may return Home to Reality where the infinitely brilliant and undimmable Light of God's Love embraces all in eternal ecstasy.

Each one of you, even though you have not had the joy of a personal NDE, is also assisting mightily in the awakening process.  The many are opening to the realization of the infinite Oneness that is the divine Creation as a direct result of the ever increasing intensity of the Tsunami of Love enveloping Earth and all life upon it.  It is an intensity that you are driving in your enthusiasm to awaken, and to bring all to awakening with you.

Humanity's awakening is the only possible outcome because it is the divine Will, and all wills are in alignment with God's, although within the illusion that appears to be but wishful thinking.  Maintain that wish, maintain your will to awaken, and make it happen.  That is why you are on Earth at this time.

With so very much love, Saul.

My comments

I have known a number of people who have had NDE's and they all report the same experience of all encompassing love as soon as they break free of the veil.  Every one has said what a completely different perception they had of life when they came back. Every one of them was transformed by the experience and wanted to fulfil their world service and assist humanity.   All appreciated the opportunity of living on earth.

We must release this belief in the 'Matrix', the illusion that humanity has created through their own 'Creative Will' by being manipulated by the Cabal, the minions of the Illuminati, who used our creative will for their own ends.  They used their awarenesses and understanding drawn from fourth dimensional consciousness to 'puppeteer" our abilities to create the very illusion that we are now emprisoned by.  We have to break free.  To realise that we have the personal power and divine support to free ourselves from the 3D dimension illusion. From the fears. There is only love.  There is only creativity and abundance. That is our birthright.  If we are not receiving it then it is our responsibility.  We are getting in our own way.  Release what is preventing you from honouring yourself and your abilities and needs.  We have the personal power and the personal Will which is a part of Divine Will, to co-create 'heaven' on earth.    In other words a love filled life whilst living on earth. And of course the earth is evolving into a 5D state. So we too must evolve along with our Earth Mother, our home.  

Humanity is awakening - as individuals we can do so more speedily if we know what the process entails. Each person who awakens assists the remainder to awaken. The hundredth monkey syndrome* is responsible for this fact.


The hundredth monkey effect is a studied phenomenon in which a new behavior or idea is claimed to spread rapidly by unexplained means from one group to all related groups once a critical number of members of one group exhibit the new behavior or acknowledge the new idea. The theory behind this phenomenon originated with Lawrence Blair and Lyall Watson in the mid-to-late 1970s, who claimed that it was the observation of Japanese scientists conducting a study of macaque monkeys on the Japanese island of Koshima in 1952.  These scientists observed that some of these monkeys learned to use the ocean to wash sand and soil off sweet potatoes and gradually this new behavior spread through the younger generation of monkeys—in the usual fashion, through observation and repetition. Watson then concluded that the researchers observed that once a critical number of monkeys was reached, e.g., the hundredth monkey, this previously learned behavior instantly spread across the water to monkeys on nearby islands.